One tubby tubby... Two tubby tubby..

I love to work out. I really do, I just am not very motivated to do it although I KNOW I need to. So this morning Paul woke me up as usual to say goodbye before he left for work at 7:20 and I decided to get up for once instead of sleeping in until.. 10... or 11...
So I got up, ate some breakfast (At the normal breakfast time! That never happens!) and put on my work out clothes. I'll admit, it took me a little while longer then it should have to get my butt out of the door... but I did it.
I went down to the fitness center our apartments had and worked out for a good... long hour. I loved it.
Now, I'm about to leave for work and I feel good about myself. Sometimes that's a hard thing to accomplish during the day... to feel good about myself. So now, I'm headed out the door. The house is a disaster, but I'm happy.

Today's going to be a good day.

"A successful marriage requires falling in love many times, and always with the same person." - Mignon McLaughlin

This weekend was really a ton of fun.
Friday: I worked until 10, then Jordan came and stayed the night with us.
Saturday: I went and refereed the YW Volleyball tournament in the Dallas Stake from 8-1:30. Then I came home and Paul, Jordan and I went to Costco to buy some candy for trunk or treat. We decided we were hungry at about 5 and went to eat at my very favorite place ever... Pei Wei! Then we headed down to the ranch for Trunk or Treat with the Waxahachie wards. It was a blast. Paul had been very, very excited for this all week. Seriously. He stayed up at night talking about it. It was hilarious. We loved seeing our family and friends there and getting to chat with them as well





Sunday: We went to church. It was the Primary Program. I loooove primary programs. They are so awesome. Paul also taught in priesthood. He didn't remember he had to teach until we woke up at 11:30 this morning. That was funny. After church we went to Sandee and Jenner's house for some good eats and the new Indiana Jones movie. It was a lot of fun.

So now we get to start another week of work, school and no play. I hate Mondays, Tuesdays.. and sometimes Wednesdays but Thursday's are great because we know we'll get to spend time with each other soon!

Hope you all had a fun weekend!

Anne Frank & Dracula

I'm super excited for tomorrow. I'm getting off work at 5:30 so Paul and I can go see Diary of Anne Frank for my online Drama class! It's way up at the northwest campus, but it should be good! I love to learn about the Holocaust so this is an extra treat. I've read just about every book I can get my hands on about it. Paul thinks I'm weird, but it's VERY interesting!

And next weekend we're going to see Dracula for one of Paul's classes.

Saturday is also exciting because Kyle's getting married in the Dallas Temple and we get to go to all the fun family things all day. It should be a great time!

I decided to make another play list for my little blog here. Some of the songs I couldn't find edited.. sorry!

General Conference

Saturday night Paul and I went out on our date night. This is a mandatory thing that we do just by ourselves every Saturday night so we can spend quality time together and get to know each other just a little more. It's really really wonderful to just sit there with him and to enjoy each other's company. So we went to BJ's Brewhouse. This was our 2nd time to go.. It's probably the best pizza you could ever get and they have really great root beer! After dinner, Paul went to the Priesthood session at the Dallas Stake center so I could hang out with Chelsea while they were in the meeting. Chelsea and I just walked around Target and had a good time. Coen and Emma are getting so big. I love them so much! Coen's going to be 4 on our birthday in January! I can't believe it! After the boys were done we went to Sheridan's because I remembered it being really yummy.. but it wasn't all that great.
Sunday conference was really good. We went to the Dallas Stake center again to be with my family. We have a long standing tradition to get together on the Sunday sessions of conference and eat enchiladas. They are really, really good! We got to telling a few stories and Paul couldn't believe it. He was laughing so hard and on the way home he said "I can't believe you guys did all that crazy stuff! The most Jordan and I ever really did was have a butter fight that got everywhere!" It was so so so funny. I'd forgotten about a few things. I always remember us fighting.. like most siblings do.. but then we started reminiscing.. and it was like we were great friends growing up! I love my brothers and sisters! :) .. And mom, I guess I love you too.. :)

I hope everyone had a great weekend!

I'm not a worthless turd.

I really don't know how to start out this post. It seems like I'm sitting down to write some corny love letter, when in reality, that's not what this is at all...

I love, absolutely, LOVE being married. There hasn't been a day that's gone by that I wished I wasn't married. It's so rewarding, wonderful, and amazing. I think that's why I'm no excited for these 4 girls I know (Paige, Teri, Sarah, and Melissa) for getting engaged. All of them in the past 2 weeks and one of them I'm not even on good terms with and haven't been for a couple years now but I know how excited they are and how much they're going to love being married!

While I was thinking about Teri getting married soon I caught myself thinking "She's so young!". Ha. Open mouth insert foot... So much for that. I remember being a senior and finding out that one of my friends was getting married that had graduated in 05 and I thought "How stupid, he can't even drink wine at his own reception!" Then I turn around and get married at the same age! It's just funny how when you know, you know and theirs no since in prolonging it!

The past couple months have had it's normal, married, ups and downs. It was so annoying. Paul wouldn't say the exact right thing and I would take it so offensive. Or someone would say something to criticise and from that point on until I got home I would rip myself apart by thinking of how I'm not a good wife, I do all these things wrong and I'm so worthless and Paul would get upset because I thought of myself that way but it didn't matter to me.. And it was a spiral down from there. So ridiculous.

BUT

Last Saturday we were able to go to the temple. It was so amazing. I so love when something so amazing happens to Paul that he just talks and talks and talks because he's not really a ''sharer of feelings'' for a some things so when he talks, I love to listen. Some really amazing moments happened while we were in the temple. I sat there in the session and it's like all my self worth was stuffed back into me. I was no longer a piece of trash on the side of the road but a daughter of Heavenly Father who loves me very, very much.

After we got out of the temple, regular life started back up and things that bothered me before just weren't anything because I KNOW who I am.

It's crazy how we, or I, can forget and just beat the crap out of ourselves sometimes. I wonder how that makes Heavenly Father feel? It's the same thing with Paul. I know he loves me endlessly but sometimes if I'm not reminded and I get upset, it adds to the list of why I'm not good enough. But now, I'm working really, very hard to remember.

Paul loves me and I'm not a piece of junk. :)